I'll Sleep When I'm Dead

June 29, 2008

What kind of mother jail do they put you in if you let you 11 year-old daughter listen to Warren Zevon cd's? That's where I'm headed. Erin kiped Davis's Zevon collection from his room before we left for Houston last Wednesday, and I okayed it for the trip down: no doubt remembering "Werewolves of London" and forgetting his darker songs like "Roland the Headless Thompson Gunner," "Lawyers, Guns, and Money," and "I'll Sleep When I'm Dead" (among those I feel comfortable referencing on a family-oriented website). You have to admit the mixed feeling a cancer parent feels about this last song. The lyrics are questionable at best, and include the non-awarding winning line: I'm drinking heartbreak motor oil and Bombay gin, which I'm pretty sure I don't want Erin to learn and mimic. Yet here I am, allowing her to be-bop along with Z's songs.

Not that the concept of "I'll sleep when I'm dead" is that foreign to Erin. I thought she'd need extra rest when she got home from camp, but we had the Tjoelkers over the next day for a lake party. On Monday, she took a credit by exam test for 6th grade math in the morning, went to Creative Arts Camp in the afternoon, and had Aaron Wunneburger over afterwards for swimming and play.


On Tuesday, she re-played Monday: taking the 7th grade credit by exam test in the morning, whooping it up at CAC, and swimming with Aaron at some of his friends' house in the evening. She dragged in after 9:00.


Wednesday we hopped over to Houston to prep for her MiBG scan and by 3:00 were back in the car headed down I-45 to the Kemah Boardwalk. Twenty bucks bought a wristband and access to all the rides including Chaos, which spins riders in an almost vertical circle while allowing each pod to do full head-over-toes flips while spinning, and the Bullet (shown below). With practically no lines, you would think we would have exhausted the fun before the boardwalk closed at 10:00, but we didn't.

Thursday, of course, was Scanboree (actual results below). Friday, Erin had physical therapy in the morning and returned to camp. The grand end-of-camp finale took place Friday evening, with Erin providing some of the pre-performance entertainment with a recitation of a Dylan Thomas poem (not, as you might expect "Do Not Go Gently into That Good Night," but instead, a tribute to Willie, "Song of the Mischievous Dog") and a lot of singing and hand motions as a member of the chorus in the World-Premier Performance of Postman Paul. (See Erin on the first row, second from the left. Also imagine the horde of volunteers it took to get this group ready to perform a musical with just five days of practice, three hours per day.)


The birthday extravaganza exceeded expectations, and what can you say about a girl who makes her own birthday cakes (two mandarin orange cheese cakes and a double batch of dark chocolate brownies with pecans) AND makes sure she invites friends whose parents we like, so that we can have fun, too?



We surely can not thank all of our friends (met and unmet) enough who added to the celebration of Erin's first eleven years. This includes

• our special friend who placed a prayer in the wailing wall when he visited Israel,
  
• unknown friends who sent a clock and a puzzle made with photos downloaded from this page,
  
• friends who sent cards and electronic messages until we ran out of room to display them,
  
• a special friend who burned a CD with cutes photos of Erin that I had never seen before (talk about a windfall!),
  
• a special friend who went hunting for Venus fly-traps when it looked like Erin's ordered carnivorous plant wouldn't arrive in time,
• Erin's buddies who always know just what she likes,
• new friends from Houston who kept us supplied with DVD's during scans and who gave Erin the cutest Bambi nightshirt,
• a special friend who had dinner waiting for us on the last day of the Houston chemo marathon,
• all the special friends and relatives (who I count as friends whether they like it or not) who were so thoughtful about choosing just the right gifts,
  
• and all our friends who willingly forgive me if I have left them out of this list because the last two months have left me brain dead and struggling to remember the details that I'm usually so good at remembering.

Of course, Erin wouldn't be Erin if she just said good night and walked her friends to their cars after the party. No. At 10:00, as the last family was gathering up to depart, she asked if she could have some crackers. This is Erin code for "Are you up for a sleepover?". I really didn't think she needed to go trotting off for a spend the night, BUT since she had to start chemo on Monday and her friend was leaving for Boston on Wednesday, there didn't seem to be an easy date we could slough off to. Walter and I said, "It's your birthday. Go for it."

Have you made it this far for scan results? The blob of tumor that grew into space (its largest dimension 11.5 cm vertically, and filling up the nooks and crannies in front and to the side of Erin's spine, displacing her aorta and renal vessels) has been reduced to two measurable masses (one the size of a peanut M&M, the other the size of a raspberry) and some thickening in various soft tissue that's too thin to measure. No wonder Dr. Russell was smiling. Are you smiling?

Chipping?

June 26, 2008

I had understood Erin's doctor to say, when we started irinotecan/temador five and a half weeks ago, that she expected the drug combo to chip away at Erin's tumor. When she and I looked at the images of today's CT scan compared with the last one in clinic this afternoon, we both thought chipping was not exactly the right word. To our combined four eyes, Erin's tumor looked considerably smaller than it did last month. We will have to wait for the official pronouncement, but Dr. Russell was smiling quite a lot. In fact, she seemed disappointed that I wasn't smiling more. I told her that there was such a change in the pre-Rhino/post-Rhino Erin that I think I already knew that the scan would look good, had incorporated that information into my thinking, and had already moved on to "what's next?"

I'll post when I know the official dimensions, but until then. . .significantly smaller sound more accurate than chipped.

That information clears the deck for three more rounds of the Rhino with scans right at the start of school and the okay to vacation with inpugnity. With the last day of my summer class scheduled for tomorrow and Erin's 11th birthday party launching on Saturday, I say, "I thought summer would never arrive. Let the fun begin."

Floating With Friends

June 23, 2008

What do people I know wish for more often than anything (besides lower gasoline prices)? Unencumbered time. We all know the drill. We have a lot going on. We try to give each of our children the special attention they need. We don't want to short change our boss. The to-do list for the house gets longer rather than shorter. We need to fit in more exercise, more time with our spouse.

This is the usual for many people. Parents with cancer have all that and more. Let me tell you, I have felt the crunch lately. Between January 7 and May 13, we made ZERO trips to Houston related to Erin's treatment. We did everything at home and satisfied her Houston doc with monthly trips to our local pediatrician for blood draws. In the 42 days since May 13, we have driven to Houston ten times, spent countless hours researching and discussing treatment options, and had our ears grow hot waiting on hold with schedulers, insurance reps, and pharmacists. We have shuffled and re-shuffled Erin's schedule to accommodate her plans. Walter's research sabbatical ended on June 1, so back to the daily office grind for him. Summer school started for me the day after Memorial Day, so back to the daily grind for me. We have done what hordes of other folks do: run as fast as we can to keep up with the daily demands and fall into bed at night.

That's why I consider yesterday the perfect day. We needed to see the Tjoelkers before they left on vacation. Erin usually hangs out with Nico and Adam a lot, but Organ Camp, Chemo Camp, and Church Camp had intervened, and if we didn't see each other yesterday, we wouldn't meet up again until we were all in Pittsburgh in the middle of July.

The solution: Walter and I picked up sausage from Meyer's Barbecue (for a review of the sausage click here) when we passed through Elgin Saturday. I instructed Elaine to supply a watermelon, and I threw together some potato salad using ingredients that I didn't have to go to the store for. Erin used up the last of the peaches and blueberries to make some fruit crisp thing that she got from her new cookbook. When the Tjoelkers got to the house, we each found our favorite floating toy and slipped into the lake. Erin, Nico, and Adam proceeded to swim as far from the slothful parents as they could within the confines of a twenty-five acre lake, while the rest of us just hung out, suspended in seven feet of muddy lake water on noodles and inner tubes. The hundred degree heat faded from our memories. The lake was lukewarm on top, but chilly towards our toes. We had nowhere to go and no demands on our time. We talked. Laughed. Floated.

Eventually we drug ourselves out of the drink and had firsts, seconds, and in some cases, thirds of the thrown-together dinner. We watched the sky turn from baby blue through the spectrum of yellows and reds and finally to purple as the sun moved out of sight.

At the end of the day we fell into bed, just like always, but somehow better.

Mo of Everything

June 22, 2008

Mo Ranch belonged to Dan Moran, former president of Conoco Oil Co. Hence, its name. But most people who spend any time there, think of "Mo" as just a shortened version of "More." More fun. More beauty. More peace. More friends.

Erin definitely falls into the second category. Having just finished a full week there, she hasn't had enough and wants Mo. I got the full, three-hour run down of all the activities on the first leg of our trip home yesterday. Of course, this included usual camp stuff like horseback riding, kayaking, camping under the stars, and the high ropes course. It also included long, laughing descriptions of what she called her camp "hallmarks." She did her hair in a different style each day (a task made much simpler by the fact that her hair didn't fall out during the week). She also hung all her cards and e-mail (not a trivial volume) from her bunk. I think she remembered doing something similar when her treatment used to call for hospital stays. Anyway, she owes a big debt of gratitude and thanks to her Erin fans who celebrated her birthday and camp experience by sending cards and notes! THANKS! On the final night of camp, her group threw her a surprise birthday party and decorated her (her, not her bunk) in splendid fashion.

The only part about camp that she claimed not to like was that she danced with a boy at the "Mo Down." Apparently, at this activity, the dancing among Erin's age group was gender-oriented. The girls preferred to dance alone or in groups with other girls. The boys weren't that interested in dancing at all. . .except George. George wanted to dance, but the girls he asked kept turning him down. Finally, one of the counselors asked Erin to dance with him. Listening to Erin describe the experience was sort of like listening to her describe a day at clinic. . something to be tolerated, but not enjoyed. She thought it was woefully limiting to have to keep her hands on George's shoulders while dancing.

I will post photos in a day or two, but wanted to get in a quick update to let everyone know we made it back safely. Scans come up this week on Wednesday and Thursday. Please hope that the great way that Erin is feeling these days is because her tumor is being knocked back.

P.O.D.s

June 18, 2008

I wanted to share some P.O.D.s (photos of the day) that I grabbed off of the Mo Ranch album. Don't you wish you could tell if Erin was having fun?

Out of the Car

June 16, 2008

Today is my Mother's Birthday. Luckily, I live next door to her and don't have to make heroic efforts to see her, spend time with her, or ask favors from her. The favor today? Will you join me for lunch?

Happy Birthday Mom!

I'm positive lunch will go well. . .if I can unfold myself to walk into the restaurant. For all I know, I'm permanently set in the position I have assumed for most of the last week: knees bent at a 110 degree angle, waist bent in the opposite direction at about the same angle, both arms extended in front of me shoulder high. Here's what it looks like (the model below is simulating my posture):

With Erin at Mo Ranch, I definitely have the opportunity to get out of the car. We delivered her yesterday, and how can I say this politely? She nudged us out of the dorm after just one goodbye hug and ran off to make a name necklace with her new best friends. Be gone my worries over whether she is the right age and/or independent enough for overnight camp.

She and I had chatted (a lot) about what camp would be like--the food, the campers, the counselors, the activities. One of the last topics I had visited was her hair. What would she do if the IV Rhino caused more hair loss than the oral version she had last cycle? What would she do if her hair started falling out at camp? She reassured me. If it started thinning, she'd just wear a ponytail and a hat. If it came out in noticeable amounts, she would just invite the other campers outside for a "hair-pulling party," so they wouldn't make a mess in the cabin.

I think there is still time to get a birthday card there by Friday:

Erin Buenger
c/o Mo Ranch Summer Camp
2229 FM 1340
Hunt, TX 78024-3037

But if you are a procrastinator, you can send her an e-mail greeting by addressing it to:

summercamps@moranch.com

With the SUBJECT line: Erin Buenger

In a bow to the modern parent, camps like Mo Ranch have set up the camp equivalent to NannyCam. No we can't watch camp like its a reality show, but the staff does post photos everyday to show that the children are having fun and are not starving. Erin showed up in a few of the first day photos. Here's one where you can actually tell that it is her. The rest showed various children that might be her embedded in a group of fifteen kids wearing white t-shirts, backs to the camera, taking part in some energizer or group game. If you want to play the game "Where's Erin?" you can go to http://www.moranch.com/index.php?c=8, click on Login [username: summer08 & password: session2].

I do have quite a bit of catching up to do after last week, including a set of essays to grade and a boatload of email and phone messages to answer, but I wanted to leave you with something on the drive west that made me say hmmm, twice.

We stopped for gas and a bathroom break in Johnson City (birthplace of President Lyndon Johnson, and named Johnson City for someone or another in his family, long before he ever became famous). Anyway, while I sat baking in the summer sun, waiting for Walter and Erin, a noticed a hitchhiker standing roadside opposite me, wearing a big, white cowboy hat AND holding an even bigger, white cowboy hat. That made me say hmmm to myself and wander a bit to my right to get a better gawk. I still couldn't figure out why a guy would need two cowboy hats. Then, I looked back to my left and said hmmm a second time. A couple of guys on my side of the road had set up a tripod and an official-sized (not tourista-sized) camera and had the two-hat guy in their sight.

Conquer Childhood Cancer Act Passed!!!!

June 12, 2008

The U.S. House of Representatives UNANIMOUSLY passed the Conquer Childhood Cancer Act (now called the Caroline Pryce Walker Conquer Childhood Cancer Act) today with 416 positive votes (as if anyone in Congress would have the huevos to vote against cancer kids). Thank you for the over 20,000 letters, faxes, and e-mails you have sent that helped sway your representatives. Hopefully, the Senate will follow suit soon, and of course, that the President will sign the bill into law. When those two things happen, we will have a new mission. We must once again return to full action to get appropriations to support the bill.

Erin and I are already back in town. Days three and four went as scripted and we're set to go sledding tonight (for those of you trying to figure out Texas geography, A&M has a ski mountain with artificial turf where they teaching skiing as a PE class and let locals schedule sledding parties. Once you get over the idea of sledding on damp, green plastic grass, you can have a great time). Erin will do physical therapy in the pool while I teach tomorrow, then we will depart for the final day of chemo with our friends Tonie and Janice Sahm (her real name not just a pseudonym for stay-at-home-mom). The IV version of irinotecan has required more zofran for stomach upset, but less imodium (actually no imodium) for diahrrea.

Hump Day

June 11, 2008

I overheard Erin talking to Davis on the phone yesterday. Her side of the conversation went something like:

"Hey, Davis. . .

Yeah. We're headed home. . .

Already on the HOV lane. . .

Yeah. We are two hours earlier today than yesterday. . .

Yeah. We were the last ones left yesterday. . .

I don't know. I just took six hours to do something that was supposed to take about an hour or two. Today it only took about three and a half hours. . .

What? What does a dog do that a man steps in? Poop?. . .

[Laughing a belly laugh] Oh I get it. Pants. . .

Another one?. . .

I don't know what a man does standing up, a woman does sitting down, and a dog does on three legs. Maybe pee?. . .

Shake hands. I don't get it. . .

[Laughing more now] Oh. I get it now. Do you want to talk to mom? Okay. She'll talk to you later then. Bye."

Brothers and sisters. I can't explain them.

Anyway. Erin and I have had a successful week for the most part (other than the delays. . .unfortunately the patient load at Texas Children just gets larger and larger, so there are always unanticipated bottlenecks.) We were really lucky to have Jesse and his mom go with us on Monday and Jackson to travel with us on Tuesday.

Erin made the command decision to let me take her IV out last night so she and Jackson could get a couple of hours of swimming in after we got back to Bryan. I was really pretty surprised, since it took three tries and a whole lot of wailing to get it in on Monday. It turned out to be a most excellent decision, since her best-beloved IV placer was back today and hit the vein on the first try with no problems (other than waiting an hour and twenty-six minutes--but who's counting?-- for our turn).

We are treating ourselves for hump day and will spend the night at the Marriott and catch the new Indy Jones movie this evening. This ought to give us a head start on our infusion tomorrow and put us back to town fairly early. That will leave one more round trip before a two week break.

Erin will celebrate her eleventh birthday a week from Friday (on the 20th). If you would like to send her a birthday card or post card, you can mail it to:

Erin Buenger
c/o Mo Ranch Summer Camp
2229 FM 1340
Hunt, TX 78024-3037

It takes a long time for mail to get that deep into west Texas, so the earlier you put it into the mail (even tomorrow) the better.

There Is No Finish Line

June 8, 2008

Erin and I just finished cleaning out the van so we can live in it this week. My job included stowing all the soccer gear: three sports bags (one for my equipment, one for the team that holds the precious information notebook and the even more precious first aid kit, and one with extra gear so that Mystic forgetfulness never becomes Emergency Forgetfulness), Walter's spectator chair, and from last week, all the tryout and registrar detritus. My shed no longer has room to turn around in, but the back of my van is blissfully empty (this happens twice a year. . .during the June and December hiatuses). Erin had a larger responsibility: clearing out all the stuff that she has left scattered about in every row and all of the more than generous storage compartments supplied by the Chrysler company over the last month when she has been too busy or too tired to clear the deck.

I've had a lot on my mind the last week. Summer school is in full force (and yes, I have essays to finish grading before tomorrow morning at 8:00). I spent from 5:00-9:00 at Central Park (not new York) Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday discharging my interim registrar duties and laughing it up with a delightful group of volunteers that make youth competitive soccer in our community possible. Erin had Music Camp every morning, Credit by Exams, piano lessons, physical therapy, friends over, visit to friends houses, horseback riding, and of course two nights of soccer tryouts.

Sounds normal by Erin Buenger standards, doesn't it?

That's what's been on my mind. This week has seemed blissful. No constant checking about the need for ____________ (fill in the blank with imodium, tylenol, zofran, hydration or your own personal favorite). No monitoring of energy level or appetite. No wondering what's happening with counts (they're stable and good) or with hair (none falling out). We even think the chemo must have shrunk the tumor because of the relieved pain and pressure in her back. My worriometer has stopped clicking like a geiger counter in the nuclear medicine ward.

Will Lacey's dad wrote around this topic recently. Will's chemo regimen gives him fourteen good (blissful) days for every seven bad days. Here is how Pat put it on Friday when they began the 18th cycle of bad days in the last year:

He (Will) is suffering and he doesn't know why.

But I know why.

He suddenly feels awful because I just gave him 4ml of liquid in a syringe 45 minutes ago. And I didn't tell him what it was, what it was for, and that is the reason he feels terrible.

Because then he wouldn't take it.

These are all things that you accept because it takes place for 7 out of every 21 days and that is the price HE pays in order to stay alive.

That is the cost of having the 14 other days where he can enjoy life as himself.

The hard part for me is that he is unable to communicate to us what he is feeling simply because he is 3 years old.

He is alive.

He does not have to go inpatient, or even outpatient for his treatment.

His counts don't drop.

His hair doesn't fall out.

We don't have to give him shots every day.

As far as quality of life goes as it pertains to relapsed neuroblastoma we have it pretty good. It is just some days like today when the opposite ends of the spectrum are seen...so soon after making your son "take his medicine"....it can be a little bit jarring on your parental senses.

I have thought long and hard about this, and I have something to add. Just like Pat, I'm glad that The Rhino has been as easy as it has been. I'm glad that it seems to be working. I'm glad Erin has great days. It's a whole lot easier than at diagnosis when we would check her into the hospital and chemo drips would run twenty-four hours a day. We lived in the clean zone, protecting her from infections and other bugs that could lay her low. We signed informed consent forms virtually guaranteeing hearing loss, sterility, and organ failure. Everything we encountered was new and frightening.

But in some ways our situation now is much, much harder. When we started this game in July 2002 Erin's doctor handed us a road map that outlined the steps we would take to get Erin cancer free. We knew the process and approximately how long it would take. Because there was an endpoint, I could treat it like a project. I teach project management. Projects start. They end. They attempt to accomplish specific objectives. You manage them to completion. You may encounter set backs, but you re-group and keeping working towards the goal. That's what we did, and we did it well.

Now, here in relapseland, particularly in tumor progression relapseland, the bliss is all temporally finite. We start chemo again tomorrow. We hope to continue starting chemo every three weeks for a long time. The only obvious end points are set by more disease progression, unacceptable chemo toxicity, or a switch to some other treatment option (which we hope would be effective, but yield more good days).

We hope that the bad days aren't too bad and that the good ones are blissful. We hope to keep fooling ourselves that we have the energy and stamina and good luck to make it. That scientists can move fast enough to build the silver bullet that stops neuroblastoma in its tracks. That Erin's body and spirit stays strong. That Erin's tumor stays stupid and easily managed. That there enough good days to make the bad days tolerable.

We now live with more urgency and passion, and unexpectedly, much more calmness and certainty. I read it on a Nike poster in the gym: There Is No Finish Line.

Recreational Infusions

June 4, 2008

My back feels better these days, but I notice I'm in the bathroom more frequently. And my appetite has dwindled. I'm definitely tireder.

It makes no logical sense, but just like husbands who experience sympathetic pregnancies with the resulting weight gain and food cravings, I think I have sympathetic neuroblastoma. All Erin has to do is mention a symptom or side effect, and I start channeling it. Not, of course, to the extent that Erin experiences it. Still, when her back hurt a lot this spring, I found that I would switch the seat warmer on in the driver's seat when I ferried her around town, just to help my achy back. And since she started irinotecan and temador, my back feels better, but my digestive track has suffered. I can't explain it, but as a mother, I just wish it were as easy as me taking over the pain, the digestive upset, the trauma of it all.

I do have to report on soccer tryouts: Erin played harder for longer than she has since spring break. At a water break about half way through tryouts, she came over and asked me for one of those "melt-in-your-mouth tablets" (zofran) because she thought she was going to throw up. I looked at her and considered pulling her off the field. Instead, I reached into my purse and handed her one. We exchanged a look. Without saying a word, she and I both had decided that she felt that way because it was 95 degrees with full humidity, she was out of playing shape, and she was working hard (I suspect everyone there was about to throw up). The zofran was the compromise she was willing to make to keep going. She finished out the session and rewarded herself by watching a couple of episodes of Star Trek Next Generation on television. I don't know if the trainers recognize that the fierce determination that gets her through treatment and has let her face cancer down for the last six years is exactly the determination they need their players to have. I hope it shines through, because on size and stamina alone, she might not measure up.

Clinic yesterday was a breeze, except that the staff has a new computer system that no one really understands. That's why Dr. Russell needed help to write Erin's prescriptions; that's why I had to take a phone survey that began "has your son ever had a CT scan before?" before I could get this month's scans scheduled (I guess doing scans every two or three months for six years doesn't excuse you from anything); that's also why it took an inordinate amount of time to schedule Erin's next appointment (see below). Oh well, none of that really mattered. Erin's counts can back stronger than I expected and about the same as last week:

HGB 9.5
WBC 4900
ANC 3400
PLT 395,000

She had gained the kilo back she had lost earlier last month and perhaps grown a half centimeter. This is the off week and we're set to start the second cycle of the Rhino next week.

Unfortunately (don't you hate paragraphs that start with unfortunately?), Dr. Russell nixed the idea that Erin could take week two of chemo at camp or forgo the second week or delay the second week. This turned Erin into a storm of gloom. Months ago, Erin had organized her summer around Mo Ranch. This was her first overnight camp opportunity, scheduled to encompass her birthday. It was the only firm plan she had. Everything else, in her mind was negotiable. Mo Ranch wasn't.

I guess the good news is that you can take the Rhino two ways: at home for two consecutive weeks or at clinic as an infusion for one week. So, next week, I'm going to teach each morning, then stow Erin, drive the two hours to Houston, let the nurses drip some toxic chemicals into her bloodstream, drive home, sleep, and re-start the cycle. I'm going to consider it a set of recreational infusions (with apologies to Spencer Dolling, who coined the term recreational transfusion for all those times he took a Friday blood or platelet transfusion even when he hadn't quite bottomed out so that he would be ready for a weekend of fun). We'll pack the chemo into one week, so Erin can move unfettered into week two and the healing powers of Mo Ranch. Let me know if you would like to join us for one of our daily outings.

School's Out for Summer

June 2, 2008

I found myself thinking about Alice Cooper over the weekend. Not that I ever cared too much for his music (or cosmetic choices), but who among you of a certain age can ever let the end of the school year pass without channeling his [excerpted] lyrics:

School's out for summer
School's out forever

No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher's dirty looks

Erin brought the end of her own school year (an incidentally her entire elementary experience) to a close in true "Erin Style." Between Erin and Davis, the Buenger family has had a close association with Mary Branch Elementary for fifteen years. How could we afford to thank everyone who had influenced, cared for, nurtured (and in some instances) provided some needed smack down? Truman's Chocolates, of course (I recommend a little side trip to this link. You can roll your cursor over each piece of chocolate, see what it is, and imagine yourself savoring it). Really, who can resist giving art, tasty art as a gift? Erin and I ordered 32 small boxes of Truman's to pass out to everyone who had anything to do with our family over the last decade and a half. This included cafeteria ladies, custodians, secretaries, teachers, the nurse (of course), and practically anyone who had smiled at Erin or Davis or made their days. She really enjoyed passing out the goodies and hearing the wows and woohoos that came along with the thank you hugs.

Erin continued the race to the end of school by garnering a number of small recognitions (a math award, good grades award, etc.) and doing some of the introductions at the graduation ceremony. Both she and the person responsible for reminding her (note bene: not her parental units) forgot to take her scripted comments to the ceremony. Unfortunately, the teleprompter was also on the fritz. Thus, she winged it. . . successfully, of course. No problem for the next president of the United States.


The ceremony rolled into the reception with much hugging and many goodbyes (mostly to people we are destined to see over and over again over the next days, weeks, and years). We then took an impromptu lunch with many of our friends and ended the day with a grade-wide pool party.

Erin has hit the pool or lake every day since.

We ended the second week of chemo early on Saturday morning (week two requires a little less coordination because the Rhino is served sans Temador). I have to say that irinotecan/temador is more trouble to administer and has a few more niggling side effects than popping the cyclophosphomide tablet with the breakfast vitamin every morning. Erin has taken Imodium every other day or so, but usually only one dose. I wish the rest of the time wase normal, but in fact, she seems to have to pass through a constipation stage before she can get to diarrhea. Intermittently, she actually has normal digestion. I think she prefers the diarrhea to the constipation because of the accompanying stomach pain and bloating. When she has a lot to do, she doesn't notice the discomfort of either end of the spectrum, but if I slow down the party to get her some rest, she really focuses on it. What to do? Keep the party rolling.

Today she headed out to First Pres Music Camp for the morning, followed by PT at 2:00, and tryouts for next year's Mystic team at 6:00. Tomorrow, she'll do a short day at camp, then we load up for a quick trip to clinic in Houston. Wednesday is more camp and more tryouts with a Credit by Exam test for 6th grade Science sandwiched in between. Thursday will be an easy day, just camp and Credit by Exam testing. . .oh and playing with her buddy Jackson Ross afterwards. Friday is just camp, plus the Camp finale performance. Maybe it will be enough to keep her mind off her digestion.